BANGbang

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against_all_0dds@hotmail.com — Sun, 13 Feb 2005 22:31:59 GMT

I VOTE FOR CHANGE!! (:
So go here: ___psychobabble.
Because ___psychobabble=nikkou.
And I'll probably consider updating that one. (:
Or at least I will when I have time. :x

Peer pressure tends to work.

against_all_0dds@hotmail.com — Sun, 11 Jul 2004 17:52:45 GMT

Or at least on me, it does. (:

Okayyy. I wrote that entry before, and got pretty giddy about it. I redid my icons, colors, and so on.. And then I never updated. I used the excuse "I don't know what to write.." way too many times. And while I still don't know what to write, or what I'm writing about now, I'm glad I chose to do it in the first place. (:

..Hrm. Schools out. :D I couldn't be happier. I've gotten time to pick up my old obsessions again.. Like Furcadia, watching (&memorizing) infomercials, staying online longer than everyone else, and perhaps learning how to draw without a tablet. Maybe even learning to draw with a laptop. o.o; Doubting thattt. Hah, anyways.. I stayed up all night last night, and I'm proud of myself. Normally I'd give up around 3am, and go to bed. BUT NO, I was awake all night long. (: I watched Jay and Silent Bob Strikes Back. Plus I was way to giddy about a conversation with my crush<3 to waste time sleeping. And suprisingly, after napping this morning for like, 30 minutes, I've never felt more rested. Everyone should try it. :p

And gosh, I guess that's it. I still really don't know what I wrote about, but who cares. :p I updated.

Oh, and I spoke to Nekki last light. :D She told me to update a certain way, so I shall:
"hi i'm hot." (:

sooooooo....

against_all_0dds@hotmail.com — Thu, 01 Jul 2004 01:27:03 GMT

xx tarnishedSTAR: NIKKOU UPDATE YOUR LJ
xx tarnishedSTAR: NOW D:<

and done. (:

i miss everyone, even though there's really no where or way to show it. hearts and smiles, yo.

AND HOW, nikkou.

...

against_all_0dds@hotmail.com — Tue, 31 Dec 2002 05:40:54 GMT

...Aww.. I miss all of yew guys ( Erm.. The CG gang. x.o; ).. ToT;;.. Erm.. o.o; Yess.. Hah, How has everyone been?

...

against_all_0dds@hotmail.com — Tue, 20 Aug 2002 04:30:19 GMT

Bleh.. I feel so ucky..

My band director left our school.. He was known for like.. being close to perfect.. Each school he went to.. ALWAYS won first place in band reviews and parades.. ._. And he left us in the middle of the year.. It was so sad..

Ok, so it was the beginning of band camp.. And me and Ely thought it'd be a great day because we were having fOOn. :) And.. we were like.. :

Ely: Wouldn't it be funny if kids from Mount Carmel (Our Rivals.. >D ) were hiding in the bushes--

Meh: OR THE SODA MACHINES!! THE SODAS!~~~

Ely: THE SODA MACHINES!! But they were trying to steal our drill--

Meh: AND OUR ROUTINE!! Dun dun duh!

Ely: And your routine.. But.. Then.. we'd like find them.. And see their shirts.. which would convieniently say Mount Carmel.. And we'd be like--

Meh: You're spying on us!! Evil Mount Carmel people!!

Ely: Riiight.. And they'd be like.. "Uh.. We're not from Mount Carmel" And we'd tell them it's on their shirt.. And one of them could run off..

Meh: (By now, we've attracted a crowd.. XD) And we could grab the other one!! And we could call their school.. and say stupid but important things like "I seeeeeeeeeeeee yewww.."

Ely: OH! And.. "We've got yer boys.." And.. AH! JAVIER IS A SPY!!

Javier: Erm.. I am..?

Ely: WHERE'S YER CAMERA?!?! HUH! HUH??

Meh: It's his watch@! GRAB HIM, ELY!!!!! He's taping you!!

And.. Then the assistant band director comes and tells us to go to the quad.. and.. We sit around.. and Mr. L (Band director that left) Starts saying stuff.. and then he goes "I have shocking news for you.. But I'm resigning my band director career.. I'm moving to Las Vegas.." He said his sorries, and its not our fault.. And then he just left.. And I'm sure thats the last time I'll ever see him.. Thats when me and a WHOLE mess of other people were crying.. And so was our color guard teacher.. She's been friends with him for like.. 20 years.. And they've worked together for 6 at Bonita.. and yeah.. Then some people talked to us.. Then we went to the field.. sat in a giant circle.. cried and talked and hugged and what not.. Then we walked around the school all seperatly and stuff.. I picked a few flowers and gave them to some of the color guard girls who were crying the most.. Then I walked with Elisa.. telling her that we'd all see Mr. L again.. Even though I wasn't sure about it.. And yeah.. That's it.. I'm still crying some.. We don't even have a band director now..

I need rest..

Do You Know The Muffin Man?

against_all_0dds@hotmail.com — Sun, 18 Aug 2002 05:17:26 GMT

01) Name 3 of your favorite songs: Techno Wonderland - Paulina Taylor / Eye Opener - Dj Brisk and Trixxy / Heart Of Gold - Paulina Taylor
02) Name 3 of your favorite movies: Billy Elliot, Se7en, Antitrust
03) Name 3 countries you'd like to visit: Japan, Canada!!! And.. Canada
04) What's your favorite WinAmp skin?: I ono.. I dun use eeet.
05) Have you ever eaten an egg raw?: Not Yet. :) I'll eat one the day I smoke pot.
06) Do you like tofu?: I touched it once in Vons. The package had a hole.. and I made it bigger.. and it kinda fell on the floor.. and my mommy stepped on it.. And.. No, I don't like tofu.
07) Do you have a cell-phone? YES! AND IT'S REALLY CUTE!! It has rainbow buttons!! And BLOO hibiscus flowers on the cover!! :)
08) If so, what ring-tone do you have it on? I always switch between Butterfly (From DDR No dah.), Never Gonna Make (From DDR again.) and the march from band. It's cute. n.n
09) Shower or bath?: Shower. It's painless. In and out.. Innnn and ouuuut.. >D
10) Pepsi or Sprite?: PEPSI!! *drool*
11) Pop or rock?: Both, I suppose.. But I dooo love techno most.
12) Cat or dog?: Kittieeee, idiot.
13) Chinese food or Japanese food?: Chinese.. I fink.. I usually just order the fatter noodles.. XD
14) ^.^ or ^_^?: ^_^ or ^^ or :D
15) Who is/was your first online friend?: Raye-Chan.. I believe..
16) What operating system are you using?: Windows.. Eh.. Dunno.. I think it's like.. Me?
17) Have you ever crashed a golf cart into something?: No.. But my cousin did.. With me in the car.. He hit a tree, spun out, and I flew out of the little cart. :)
18) Do you have an MD player? I ono.. o.O;
19) Do you have a PS2, XBOX, Gamecube, and/or Dreamcast? Or none of these?: YOU IDIOT! PLAYSTAION ONNEEEE OWNS US! AND SO DOES MY SUPER NINTENDO AND N64!! Rawr~~
20) Have you ever played Grand Theft Auto III? If you have, what did you think of it?: Nope. :)

Do you know the Muffin Man?

AIM Convo.. >3

against_all_0dds@hotmail.com — Sat, 10 Aug 2002 20:20:24 GMT

Someone: guess what?\
b0b luvs jo0: What? o.o
Someone: I WAVE MY TESTICALES IN UR DEFIANCE!!!!
Someone: MUHAHA
b0b luvs jo0: Right.. Don't make me wave mine right back at you! ^_~
Someone: holy shit!
b0b luvs jo0: Holy shit is right. >D
Someone: ur a freak.
Someone: WARNING ME IS YOU
b0b luvs jo0: Eh.. o.o;
Someone: I WAVE MY TESTICALES IN DEFIANCE OF YOUR WARNINGS!!!!
Someone: THEY FLY LIKE A FLAG IN THE WIND
b0b luvs jo0: Right..
Someone: AND JOO WILL NOT LOVE BOB WHEN HE SEES MY TESTICALES IN HIS MOUTH
Someone: WELL JOOS SUCKING MY TESTICALES
Someone: AS THEY FLY IN THE WIND
b0b luvs jo0: Don't you wish :D
Someone: NO
Someone: I KNOW
b0b luvs jo0: You know to unclog a toilet?
Someone: DOES IT INVOLVE FLYING MY TESTICALES
b0b luvs jo0: ...
Someone: IN YOUR G/F'S FACE AS SHE EAGERLY RAMS THEM INTO HER MOUTH
Someone: OR DO I USE A PLUNGER
b0b luvs jo0: Who's girlfriend? I'm a friggen girl, idiot.
Someone: I DONT KNOW THIS THIS AINT MY SN
Someone: WELL THEN YOU CAN GET ON THE ACTION TOO
Someone: WHICH EVER ONE OF THE TWO DAMN NAMES YOU ARE
b0b luvs jo0: You'd like that wouldn't you..
b0b luvs jo0: Me pleasuring you with dirty words..
Someone: I WILL WAVE MY TESTICALES AT YOU TOO
Someone: NEH, WITH YOUR TONGUE ON MY TESTICALES
Someone: AND FRENCH MUSIC GOING
Someone: BUT ANYWAS, I WAVE MY TESTICALES AT YOU, AND YOU CANNOT RESIST
Someone: IM MAKING A MOVIE ABOUT THE RESISTANCE AND TESTICALE WAVING
b0b luvs jo0: Vous aimez le fran?ais, vous? Obtenez loin de moi, vous la foutue troisi?me niveleuse. ^_^
Someone: I GET THE FIRST PART
Someone: HOWS THIS
Someone: SUCK LE BALLS
b0b luvs jo0: Aren't we a smart one.
b0b luvs jo0: Wow, how long did it take you to learn that?!
Someone: I WANNA OBTAIN YOUR LOIN?
Someone: i quit french is for testicle flying
Someone: not speaking
b0b luvs jo0: Aww.. what happened to your caps? You seemed more idiotic that way
Someone: fine
Someone: I GALLANTLY WAVE MY TESTICALES IN YOUR UGLY FACE IN DEFIANCE TO YOUR SNOBBY FRENCH
Someone: better, eh?
b0b luvs jo0: not really
Someone: oh fine
Someone: tu mange ta merde
b0b luvs jo0: No, but I'm sure you'd like to.
Someone: hell at least i got it right that the french snob here unedrstands it -.-

Whee.. Don't you just.. love the people you can meet on AIM?

My hubby o

against_all_0dds@hotmail.com — Sun, 04 Aug 2002 07:56:55 GMT

Jamie Bell~~ *droool* I found voice clips and pictures.. so I figured.. why not annoy the few who acctually read? n.n;

Voice Clips
Boys Play Football
Mother's Letter
The Sun Will Come Out
Royal Ballet School
Addition Panel
Wowzahz.. Ain't his accent just the sessiest thing you've ever heard..? Oh.. and yeah.. he's the young sounding boy in all of them.. The sessie sounding one =3

pictoors
Jean Jacket
Dance
Boxing
Addition
Dance 2! XD
If you take out Debbie, it's perfect.
Boxer 2

There. Done rambling about my sessie hubby.. *drool* Everyone! Go watch Billy Elliot! Then buy me the soundtrack HERE!! You can IM me for my address. :)

here's johnny.. i mean.. nikkou

against_all_0dds@hotmail.com — Thu, 01 Aug 2002 07:37:06 GMT

wahaha.. IM BACK! miss me? no. :D wheee.. let's summarize.

monday ---___ july 29th
well, i woke up at o'dark o'clock in the morning (oki, 4:45) got dressed.. and left for the airport.. then.. the lines for SECURITY.. like.. went outside, and like.. a big curly-cue thing.. like a snails shell? yeah... well that line took around.. 45 minutes.. then.. we finally got inside.. did the whole airplane thing.. and arrived in las vegas around sometime.. then we checked into the Monte Carlo, which was *very* nice.. right when i walked in.. like.. seeing the casino for the first time.. was amazing.. with all the flashing lights and sounds and what not.. a casino is one thing a person has to see before they die, even if they aren't gambling.. it just looks so great.. the lights.. *drool*.. then we walked down the strip to New York, New York and walked inside of there.. Came back to the Monte Carlo.. and like.. my mommy, aunt, grandma, and my aunt's friend gambled for a bit.. and i got chased off by the police for trying to put a quater in the slots :D.. then we went swimming.. the pools were great.. and they had giant places for laying out to tan.. they had one regular pool, a lazy river, a wave pool, spa, and a kiddie pool.. they were all so relaxing in the heat.. *o* muahah, then my mother bought me one of the best strawberry margarita's i've ever had.. it was just.. great. then we walked around more.. headed towards Excalibur, Lexor, where i got tickets to those i*max rides.. i went on one called "Fun House" which was just.. stupid.. and I saved my other ticket for later.. and we wandered across the street to M and M's world.. and Gameworks.. and I played a game of DDR, bought a m*and*m plooshie, the yellow one of course, and went to sleep back at the hotel. :)

tuesday---___july 30th
uhhmm.. woke up (no~dah!).. ate at this buffet (BUFFEYYY o_O) and like.. went swimming again.. Then we rode the tram to the Belagio.. which was.. just.. amazing.. It's GIGANTIC.. and.. so golden.. *o* Yeh.. not much for kiddies, though.. You were supposed to be 18 to ride the tram there.. I suppose that makes me.. a fugitive again? Myuu.. then like.. We went to Mandalay Bay which.. reminded me of Indiana Jones suuuu much.. it's like.. one of those indian temples and stuff.. *drool*.. not much for kiddo's either.. den we rode the tram to Lexor and I watched my second i*max ride, In Search Of The Oblisk, blah. Terrible story.. Bad love scene, cheap rip-off of star wars. Nuff said :D.. Yeah.. then we walked down to Cesar's Palace and.. it was great! One of my favorites.. mah mommy and i left our group.. and we went to the Forum.. which was like.. all these nice shops.. AND THE ARCADE!! ee!! it had dance maniacs! XD i spent 5 bucks on it! its like ddr, except you use your hands and stuff.. muchos foon. and I played some DDR.. then mommy and I went to the MGM Grand and I played some more DDR.. wandered around.. and yeah.. took a taxi to the hotel room.. yeppp.. o_o; and I wrote mah postcards! XD

wednesday---___july 31st
Last day.. nurhur.. I slept in till like.. 9 while the adults gambled and had breakfast.. My mommy brought me a bagel and we walked to m*and*m world again.. and we bought a tote-bag and some crispy m*and*m's.. which i ate on the way to gameworks.. and then i played some ddr and attracted this huge crowd.. it was soooo much fun.. i did like 15 songs.. and i was sweating.. XP mommy ran up to m*and*m world and bought me a water bottle.. which i finished in like.. 5 seconds.. and we walked back to the Monte Carlo and I drank another water bottle :D.... so.. it was hot. sent off my postcards, and got ready to leave for the airport.. and at the airport.. i was walking behind this guy.. who had an Invader Zim keychain on his backpack.. and like.. a little case filled with Johnny the Homicidal Maniac, I Feel Sick, and Squee comics.. AND! he was carrying around a SPOOKY doll! i got all jealous and stuff.. but he was on the same flight as me :D and I guess he was going to Comic-Con.. no one that loaded with Jhonen stuff would just be going to San Diego for a nice vacation.. nuu.. Ima find him and turn him into my stalking buddy. >3

yeah.. so that's about it.. i missed my computer.. for three days. o_o;; *plays more E-Rotic songs >3*

Oh Nick Please Not So Quick, You know I want it BIG. <3

against_all_0dds@hotmail.com — Sun, 28 Jul 2002 21:38:16 GMT

waaahhaha. I'm going to Las Vegas tomorrow~ :D I get to stay in the Monte Carlo.. and the pools.. sound like heaven.. Wave pool, lazy river.. *drooool* Ack.. but the hotness.. It's supposed to be 108* up there Tuesday.. >_< Fookin hell, its only 72* in Cali right now :D.. Muahah.. I'm gonna be like.. BLACK by the time I get back. (3 days, hur hur hur) Yep..

Uhmm.. On.. Friday? I saw Austin Powers.. o_o Cept, I was in a bad mood when I watched it.. kinna ruined everyfing.. but the whole movie was worthwhile.. because of the 3.9084598273(Or around that) seconds where KEVIN SPACEY was in it. :) *nod* and meh buddies Kayla and Ely came over.. and we played DDR for a while.. which is the *bombest* game. Yep.. and we watched Not Another Teen Movie (WAHAHAHAH).. The dirtyness turned us on.. or something like that O_o; *koff*..

Err.. I decided to go draw again.. once I set up my tabby, Mr. T.. which probably won't be for a while due to me and my father's lazy*ness.. But.. yeah.. thank yous especially to Rinni and Iris for the sweetness things yew said.. and yeah..

Oh Nick, please not so quick.. You know I want it BIG.. :) and.. now.. I'm off to go kick Blockbuster's bootay because I turned in my movies late.. I have to keep them for another week and pay 8 bucks then.. >_< *grabs random object of torture and runs off* This same thing happened with "Hey You Pikachu!" -o-

No more. :D

against_all_0dds@hotmail.com — Fri, 26 Jul 2002 05:40:57 GMT

Bah. I hate drawing. So me no more draw on dbbs. :] Yep. I give up. o.o

Nuurrr.. Now that I've got my dragon and pheonix, I have no one to talk to.. I only get to make fun of little 12 year olds who want me to give them my pheonix.

Blah. Everythings just gone wrong. I just.. kinna feel like quiting everything. Pulling out the plug to my computer, and just do shit for the rest of my summer. Hah, who cares anymore? :)

[ ooper earo nikkou ]

muahaha..

against_all_0dds@hotmail.com — Wed, 24 Jul 2002 05:07:47 GMT

i.. bought.. a.. draggy.. and.. a.. pheonix.. o_o..

i'm.. a.. happy.. girl.. :D err.. yeah.. *falls asleep*

Watermelon Bubble Tea :9

against_all_0dds@hotmail.com — Sun, 21 Jul 2002 07:45:51 GMT

-afternoon-

mesa justttt came back from the mall. :D and i'm a happy girrrll.. ^^ i went to hot topic and i bought mehself a DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL Tee. ^_^.. and a Flogging Molly sticker and pin.. because I am too cheap to buy another teeshirt and my credit card money was running low. x_x;

T___T I love it.. I love Dashboard Confessional.. Meep, and I bought the soundtrack to DDR 3rd mix.. Just to listen to Captain Jack. :9.. and Smile.DK.. and E-Rotic, "Oh Nick Please Not So Quick" XD.. That sounds wrong. o.o;;

-night-
wheee.. Now.. Now i'm all drunkish.. o_o My mother and father went to the Smokin' Grooves concert (Blah, people like Outkast) to work! Haha, for my color guard/band account. Fweee.. they served drinks all night.. and Meh daddy brought home a few bottles of beer, like.. 4 margarita coolers.. and i can't remember what else.. But I drank one of the margarita coolers.. and something else.. I have no clue what it was.. or what it tasted like.. but now.. i feel drunkish, sick.. and i have a KILLER headache. blahh.. o_o I watched Billy Elliot 3 times today.. I have one of the dances memorized. ^_^;; Rawr.. I'm off to stalk someone. o.o

What good ish Furcadia?

against_all_0dds@hotmail.com — Sat, 20 Jul 2002 05:15:45 GMT

It's only good for being a flirt!! Err o_O;;
And meeting guys that are tooo horny to capitalize words and spell you.

Errr.. o_o; Guess who's baccckkk? o.o; Meh.

Anyways... o_O I'm terribly close to buying the Fireworks Special on FURC.. Draggy and Pheonix for fifty bucks.. I want it sooo much.. T_T

you know what's good? mcDonalds chicken flatbread sandwiches. :9 worth the $5.92 for the meeealll.. yeppppp x_x eehh.. it's one of the 15 best things in the world..
1. billy elliot ?
2. k-pax ?
3. jhonen vasquez ?
4. drawing ?
5. jamie bell ?
6. mcDonalds chicken flatbread ?
7. techno muZic. ?
8. dashboard confessional ?
9. instant messenger (when it doesn't lock up) ?
10. roman dirge ?
11. furcadia (when i am not lagging mah butt off) ?
12. color guard ?
13. johnny the homicidal maniac comics (dun ask, o.o) ?
14. lenore comics ?
15. invader zim ?

Yeeppp.. o_O; And that's all I have to say.. because I'm much to lazy to do anyfing now.. ?

Music Survey, for the hell of it.

against_all_0dds@hotmail.com — Mon, 27 May 2002 05:38:01 GMT

001. Favorite band(s)? Dashboard Confessional, Daft Punk, Mandy Moore, Hoobastank, Linkin Park, System Of A Down, Unwritten Law, Eve 6
002. Do you enjoy concerts? I suppose so..
003. What was the last concert you attended? Neva eva, just like my love life.
004. Music you couldn't live without? Dance, Euro-Pop, DDR MUSIC!!
005. Kind of music that would fall off the face of the earth and you wouldn't care nor miss it? Rap, R+B (Dieee..)
006. About how many CDs do you own? Uhh.. 100+
007. How many CDs can your stereo hold at a time? Well, my cd player takes 1.. The one in my room takes 3.. and my Daddy's takes 5. Im loaded.
008. Do you have a discman? Yeh, but I broke it.. I need a new one.
009. What CD(s) could you listen to for hours? DDR 4th Mix, Unwritten Law | Elva, Dashboard Confessional (All of the LP's and CD's)
010. Can you sing well? And you wonder why I wanted to be a popstar.

How many CDs do you own by...
011. Britney Spears? 2
012. City High? Ew, 0
013. O-Town? Ew, 0
014. Eminem? 1
015. Incubus? 1
016. Blink 182? 2
017. Everclear? 2
018. Mandy Moore? 2
019. Backstreet Boys? 2
020. N'Sync? 2
021. Dr. Dre? 0
022. Fuel? 1, sadly.
023. Linkin Park? 1
024. Destiny's Child? 0.. EW~
025. Dream? 1 I have Sofi's.. I don't know why though.
026. Korn? 0
028. Missy Elliot? 0
029. Nelly Furtado? 0
030. Jessica Simpson? 0
031. Christina Aguliera? 1
032. Eve 6? OH!!! I LOVE EVE 6!! 2
033. Sum 41? 0
034. No Doubt? Like 3 or 4
035. Mariah Carey? 2
036. The Offspring? 2
037. Rancid? 0
038. System Of A Down? 1
039. Kittie? 0
040. NoFX? 0 (Ew.)

What lyric comes to your mind when you hear...
036. Goo Goo Dolls? Your the closest to Heaven that I'll ever be..
037. Lifehouse? Ew..
038. Vertical Horizon? ..sna sna.. Your a God..
039. Vitamin C? Smile.. *shudder*
040. LFO? Sometimes Im right, sometimes she's wrong.. Or.. unno
041. Savage Garden? I wanna lay like this forever.. *shudder*
042. Papa Roach? Suffication, no breathing
043. The Bloodhound Gang? Let's do it like they do it on the discovery channel.. That's them right? Cuz.. that song is bad.
044. Toni Braxton? Unno
045. 98 Degrees? *insert spanish words here*
046. Our Lady Peace? o_o; Whom?
047. The Verve Pipe? We were only Freshmen
048. Craig David? Aghhh... Unno
050. Aqua? Im a Barbie Girl (My face makes you hurl.. HAHA)
052. Micaela? Who?
053. The Fugees? Ehhh?

Either or...
054. Britney or Christina? Britney, def.
055. Punk or rock? Rock.. Punk ish gettin on me nerves
056. Edited or un-edited? Un-Edited.. I like the sticker they put on CD's.
057. Backstreet Boys or N'Sync? Dashboard Confessional, I mean.. N*sync
058. Nick or Justin? Chris Carabba, I mean JC.. I mean Justin
059. Live or on TV? Live
060. Amphitheater or arena? Amphitheater
061. Live band or recorded tape? Recorded.. I unno.. Live stuff scary

Starting Over.. o_O; I hope.

against_all_0dds@hotmail.com — Mon, 27 May 2002 05:07:13 GMT

TeehEe.. Me start over.. cuz.. I found my p*word~ narf.. let me update on meee.. (gawd, that sounds ghettoly*gay)

o i hate matt.. (or *him*) :]
o im no no depressed :]
o i hate matt :]
o my new computer broke, so i can't use my good internet :[
o i hate matt :]
o i love ddr :]
o i hate matt :]
o dynamite rave is the best song :]
o i hate matt :]
o uhh.. i have 13 different versions of dynamite rave on my kazaa :]
o i hate matt :]
o i want to play furcadia again, but i need my new computer :[
o i hate matt :]
o i can finally draw again (with a pencil that is)
o i hate matt :]
o i can't draw on an oekaki :[
o i hate matt :]
o my tablet is connected to my broken computer :[
o i hate matt :]
o im almost out of disk space on my c*drive :[
& and finally
o i hate matt :D

i cried.

against_all_0dds@hotmail.com — Wed, 13 Mar 2002 00:52:26 GMT

i cried on my walk home... and i cried myself to sleep on the couch.. i cried until my dad came home and forced me to do homework.. i hate him.. his albino ex girlfriend is just way to cool compared to me.. he doesn't talk to me.. only when we walk together after fourth period.. he only waves to me if he feels like it.. but now i have a feeling he hates me.. after school, i wasnt talking to anyone, not tomoko.. not him.. he yelled "bobby!" and i kinda smiled, and kept walking.. he gave me kind of a pitiful look, and said.. "..bye.." and i just waved.. i didn't want to talk.. if i opened my mouth, i'd probably cry.. and for sure as hell i didn't want to do that infront of him. i just hate everything now..

one more thing..

against_all_0dds@hotmail.com — Tue, 12 Mar 2002 06:07:22 GMT

What is your meaning of life?

i don't believe it.. my meaning of life is happiness.. i don't think i *have* a meaning for life..

Sure, I expressed myself. And yes, I do regret it.

against_all_0dds@hotmail.com — Tue, 12 Mar 2002 05:54:51 GMT

yes, i told him yesterday(Sunday) that i 'still really liked him' and all he had to say was.. "oh" bastard.. i so meant to tell him at Disneyland, on peter pan, right when were flying over the city.. but.. jessi(bitch, yo) sat in the middle of us.. again.. go figure.

weeelll.. school was kinda ok, cept i was depressed.. not to good.
1st- we saw a play.. and the guy was terribly hot.. he's on my list now.. *drool* i got called into the office so some guy could tell me I got good grades.. what a friggen waste of time.

2nd- we had a sub.. i hate hate hate him.. he spent half of the period screaming at us.. and..ergh, i got a question wrong( no, it doesn't happen very often, smart alec ) because of his stupidity.

3rd- i got made fun of because mr m. thought it was funny i was stressful during the assembly line.. errghh. i hate history

4th- wood shop is boring.. we didn't do work today so i couldn't show mr j the panda bears i wanted to make.. but once i finish the bears, im going to paint them rainbow. *narf*
-after 4th period, ~he~ didn't wait for me.. he just.. left quickly.. plus.. he hardly talked to me at school.. he waved at me twice, and mumbled something which i have no idea what it was..-

5th- i could finally listen to my cd player.. i brought orgy today.. and i played it really loud.. and everyone was like.. "who the hell is that? they suck" bahaha.. my ass, they suck.. we got to read essays.. funnn.. -o-

6th- captain.. will die.. we got to do sit-ups, push-ups, run, drill, warm-ups, and work on the routine.. which isnt really different.. but, i still will hurt her.. erm..

after school, i still felt really depressed.. so i practiced for 1 hour 30 mins.. and took a nap for a while.. i still felt pretty bad though.. i tried talking to him on the internet.. but he just said "hold on please" and signed off about 5 hours later.. bastard.. melissa & raye were telling me that he was just nervous.. or something..but i have my doubts about that..

i've decided i wanted to be a pop*star, like mandy moore.. i love her now.. a few people say i sing pretty.. but i doubt i could perform infront of people.. i also found out the song crush, by mandy moore.. was like, based on my life.. dern.. tomorrow.. i need to talk to him like.. normally.. maybe he'll start acting.. right..

.. i still feel depressed ..

dumbo~ DUMBO! WE HAVE TO GO ON DUMBO! I GET THE GREEN ONE!

against_all_0dds@hotmail.com — Sun, 10 Mar 2002 21:57:41 GMT

i went to disneyland.. with him. and *koff* jessi.. who -WILL- die tomorrow.. when he had his head on my shoulder, she pushed him away.. ugh.. i wish it was just me and him.. T_T me and him went on roger rabbit together.. and he was being manly and spinning the car.. and fun.. and jessi got pissed because she had to sit by herself..

we waited in line for the matterhorn ride thing for about, an hour and 30mins.. and we all started to sing.. we like.. scared 3 people infront of us away, so we sang louder, and a disneyland employee had to tell us to shut up.. ergh.. *shoots jessi again* i had to tackle her so i could sit by him at lunch.. and in the car, and on indiana jones, and on star tours, and on.. damn, all of the rides pretty much.. ugh.. i feel.. as if, he could never feel the same way about me.. i think im just gonna go back to bed and spend all day.. dead*like..

meeeehehehe

against_all_0dds@hotmail.com — Sat, 09 Mar 2002 05:20:17 GMT

him.. and his girlfriend got in a giant fight today.. and like, his warning level on AIM is.. like, 83% oO; but.. he's gonna break up with her.. so like, Ace.. o_o; wesa gonna go to disneyland together.. so, i'll be with him for 15 hours.. YES! me.. and his almost single self.. and jessi.. T_T

i cant help not feeling sorry for him.. he's been stressed all week.. but not tomorrow.. i hope..

ugh, in history.. we pretended we was an assembly line, and each person had to draw one part of the picture. I got a shirt.. not to hard, right? wrong.. the 8 people infront of me had to draw stuff like noses, eyes, ears, mouth, neck(DAMN YOU TOMOKO!!) and easy stuff.. Weeell.. I was getting.. kinda behind in my drawings, so there was this giant ass stack on my desk.. so my good*teacher comes up to me, slaps his ruler on my desk, and yells "IF YOUR DESK ISNT CLEAR IN FIVE MINUTES, YOUR FIRED!!" and.. "JUST BECAUSE YOUR A LAZY WORKER, DOESN'T MEAN YOU GET TO DRAW LAZY PICTURES!!!" "WHAT DO YOU THINK THIS IS, A SUNDAY SCROLL IN THE PARK?!" errgghhhh..... we made over 150 drawings.. the other half made 98. *heehee snort* o_o;;

I've seen monkeys that can do better work than you! Keep it up, and your fired.

erm..

against_all_0dds@hotmail.com — Fri, 08 Mar 2002 02:50:58 GMT

You talk to me, as if I don't know... but I do; you look at me, as if I don't care... I do; you walk with me, as if I am a stranger...but I'm not... I am no stranger, to you , nor your heart, please feel free to open up to me.
***
me: "i know that one person doesnt matter much, but i'll really miss you if you leave.."
him: "one person is all that matters.."
me: "really..?"
him: "yes"

he's.. so sweet.. ugh, it turned out his girlfriend *wasnt* mad at him.. so theyre all happy together.. screw it, maybe i wasn't meant for love.

wee~woo.. wee~woo..

against_all_0dds@hotmail.com — Thu, 07 Mar 2002 02:44:43 GMT

EEEE~ I spent a whole friggen hour with him after school.. he had his arm around my shoulders.. and he kept standing up for me.. becca tried to kill me, and he scared her away and ran off with me.. o_o; its amazing.. everyone thinks their name is Bob.. or their instruments.. (band geeks, *snort* err)
my day, was wuvwy.
1st period~english.. we read more of our reports.. and started a book.. how can any book be good where the main charrie's name.. is jethro..
second period~crappy math.. we got yelled at 6 times.. and, ergh.. stupid class.. I got an A-.. a stupid minus..
third period~history.. meeeheee.. some kid got in trouble, and mr*good*teacher took him outside, got a few inches away from his face.. and started screaming at him.. his face was bright red, and the kid was all scared.. too bad we have sound*proof glass.. T_T i got a B+ in his class..
fourth period~wood shop.. i finished my bunny!! and i get to start on my panda bears on Monday!! whee!! i have a def. A in that class, way to easy for my skilled hands. HAH, no.. On the way to lunch.. *he* saved me from stepping in egg gunk. eeww..
fifth period~yearbook.. of all the days *not* to have my CD player.. 5th per is boring now that the yearbook's.. done.. i have no work to do.. T_T;
sixth period~color guard.. hate.. captain.. >_< i hit my head.. HARD.. twas bleeding a bit.. and she started screaming at me because i stopped flipping.. and i just screamed back "I HIT MY *koff*i'll be nice now*koff* HEAD" (which hurt veeerry badly, indeed, when screaming..) and she was like.. "oh.. fine, go to the office." roar. i got out of running though. *grin*

after school practice was an hour short, so I waited an hour with.. him.. and we had fun.. narf.. kay, im i feel tremendously in pain, errgghhh *shoots captain lady* bitch.

i.. dont.. like.. practicing..

against_all_0dds@hotmail.com — Mon, 04 Mar 2002 01:04:48 GMT

You are Ellone! Good-hearted and self-sacrificing,
people often see you as what you are instead of who
you are. You have special talents others envy, but
those who take the time to know the real you will
see you for the sweetheart that you really are.

Take the Final Fantasy 8 Test here!

ive been working all day long.. math homework, history, practicing.. IM SO BORED OF PRACTICING.

Hey, guess
what? I'm a--

What
color Yoshi are you? Come take the quiz!

I want to play my yoshi game.. but my daddy is trying to drug me by painting my room.. the whole house smells like paint.. and i think im already high. i watched wallace & gromit 8 times today. w00t. i need to play harvest moon T_T;

meeep..

against_all_0dds@hotmail.com — Sun, 03 Mar 2002 06:31:22 GMT

Angel~ I lub you soo much!! Thank joo.. and.. Happy Birthday!! ^-^;
ee.. today.. my mother forced me to go shopping all day long.. -0- my grandma started to have a fit at hot topic (go figure) but.. i bought the cutest outfit there.. it was a white button up shirt.. with the most adorable TIE! mwaha.. if i don't say so myself.. i kinda look sessie in a tie.. O_O; and i finally got my rave*hello*kitty hoodie.. *koff* 44 bucks down the drain *koff*
i spent ages on angels birfday piccyture.. but i think it came out terribly sweet.. just like her.. (meep meep) ^^;